whew

wow i haven't been on for a while huh?
well I've been at kc's for the last couple of weeks... and it was great!
than i came home today... and i regret it fully.... i get home all with in a few hours... i feel like crap... my parents... i think all they live for is to make me miserable! i know I'm just being paranoid....
but hey now i have to do something... er type something to amuse some one who might be reading lol
Dear Diary:
I finally found a game that whoop kc's butt in!
The end.
Matt~

Big Woop!

all i did today was clean! woohoo!

LaLaLa

yeah i feel a little better today... i went to sleep around 12 last night and woke up at 7 in the morning... and all I've been doing all day is sitting around waiting for the phone call about Mei's surgery and maybe a phone call about the job! i got the call about Mei and it was a success! but still no phone call about the job:9 but I'm being patient! so il wait till they call!

Blah Blah Blah!

okay lets see here... i haven't been on since what? Thursday i think?
okay well Friday i went to Dallas with David for the anime convention that was being held there... we had to stop at a target ... and on a side note... that target was the most unorganized store i have ever been in... and i helped run a comic shop! but yeah... we had to stop at that crappy target and stock up on some nourishment's... stuff like sandwich meat, bread, ramen, and a few hygiene stuff as well lol.
we checked in the hotel and dropped off all the stuff in the hotel than made our way down to the dealer room... after a few hours of walking around and buy random stuff we went back up to the room and ordered some pizza!
when every one was sleeping i was busy on the hard floor thinking about everything... and than all of a sudden i couldn't breath... so i put on my shoes and went for a walk around the hotel... i made my way to the hotel gym and worked out for a couple of hours... finally exhausted i went back to the room took a shower and lied down to go to bed... but still couldn't fall asleep!
Saturday... kc was the first to wale up... than David... and him kc and i went to the gym and they worked out while i did little stuff... i was still exhausted and i was trying to get my back set. we went back to the room and Mel woke up than Megan... we sat around for a little while and finally got a phone call from Selina saying that she was parking... yay! the kids were there! we spent basically the whole day together... they always make the day better... we all went down to the dealer room and did the same thing we did the day before... just this time i was with the kiddos! a couple of hours later i walked the kids up to there room and sat there for a while playing and talking to them. i went back to my room and couldn't fall asleep again... again i went out and hit the gym... and still no sleep...
Sunday came... and we were all in a hurry... Sunday was the check out day! well all packed and took the crap to the cars... played the for the rooms than spent a hour in the dealer room... than we said our good byes to the kids and left for home...
when i got home i lied down and still couldn't fall asleep! lol i so i got up and watched a few movies... and finally around 3 in the morning i fell asleep! but only for about 3 hours! lol and to tell you the Truth i don't remember much till about a few hours ago... i remember telling my dad happy birthday and calling kc to see hoe Mei was doing and telling him to call my dad and wish him a happy birthday... and of coarse now... typing this whole long confusing thing! lol sorry for that... maybe if i get sleep i might make more sense again? not that i made sense in the first place right?
okay well I'm gonna go play down and try and fall asleep! il tell you if i succeeded tomorrow.
live long and prosper!

Job

okay yesterday kc called me at around 9 in the morning telling he had gotten me a interview!
i was scurred! but than patty talked to me and calmed me down... kc came and picked me up and took me to his job where i talked to man named Jackie Ulrich... i said all my yes sirs and no sirs and what not... well any ways... every one is 100% sure i have a job... now I'm just waiting for that phone call! woot!
if and when i get it i will be moving into kc house for a lil while till i get my own apartment... HUZZAH!

There is never nothing going on

you know... today was going awesome... i went with David and George to go do the draft for our fantasy football teams... it was fun and relaxing...
and than i get home and blammo... it hit me... the depression... thoughts... crap like that... so i just sat there thinking about stuff... everything... and you know what i came across? you have to take out the trash! i don't mean the trash in the trash can... i mean the trash in your head... the thoughts of what happened... the thoughts of what will happen... and all the crap like that... all you need in your heads is what is going on right now... and remember there is never nothing going on! all you have to do is look around you... i mean really look.... you will find stuff happening all around you!
all you have to do is your live your life moment by moment and make your self happy... all your life people tell you what you should be doing... and how to do it... i say you need to find your own way through life!
i once herd some one say "its the journey that makes you happy... not the destination" and I'm starting to believe that...
man today was a ramble if I've ever seen one...

fun times!

wanna know what i did for the last few days? just look at the pic and you will know... well it started out with me doing to kc's aunts to go swimming again... than i stayed the night so i can go to patty's birthday party! that was really fun! than the next day kc didn't want to drive so i stay another day and did some home cleaning at kc while every one was away doing what they do best... than i played some games and read a few chapters of harry potter... than the next day we all stayed around till around 10ish than they dropped me off.... yay
and today I've been playing cs and watching movies!
fun times indeed